There is a lot going on in this life. Knowledge, relationships, love, hate, all sorts of feelings, and even death. There have been many times in the many stages of my life where I thought I had it down. I really thought I knew the answers and I was doing good. Usually this mindset occurs right before everything goes to shit.
I've come to this point. I wouldn't exactly say that everything has gone to shit, however I would say that I'm making all of these turns in my life and with each one I find myself more lost than the last.
A lot of the things that scare me I have been through before. I've had all of these changes occur in various forms previously in my life. So why is it that I'm so terrified again?
I've graduated before. I've started over before. I've crushed on the wrong people. I've experienced the death of loved ones. I've done all of this but as I come across these situations again its as if they are brand new.
Over the summer when I was in LA, when I got scared and felt like I couldn't go on I would go into my small walk-in closet, close the door, turn of the lights, and cry in a little ball. I would do this, sometimes for hours at a time, and at the end of the episode I'd be so exhausted that i'd have no more energy to be scared.
Too bad my new home has no closet.
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